Dear Son, I'm so sorry for not writing for a while. I think it's because I'm trying to avoid the pain. My birthday was last Friday and it wasn't very happy at all. I kept thinking of you and what happened back in November. You were suppose to be a March baby, just like your old man. It hurts deeply knowing that that's not going to happen! It was suppose to be the best birthday present a man could want. I wish I could fix everything. I miss you so much, son. It hurts so much when I think of you and what happened. Please forgive me for not rescuing and helping you when you needed me most. I'm sorry I let you down. Please forgive me. I love you so much. Love, Daddy