Hello, Kay directed me to your site. We unfortunately have alot in common. My husband and I lost our son Ryan on November 6, 2008 at 21w3d at 9:15pm. Ryan's due date was March 16, 2009. Dates so close to your Christopher's, just a year apart. I read your entries through tears. I have been there. So many times I've cried, why me, why me? I am saddened to know I am not alone in those thoughts. Many hugs being sent your way. I dont know you but I know that pain. Hugs, Melissa