I am still thinking about you all and can only try to imagine the pain you must feel at this terrible loss of your little boy. You have nothing to ask forgiveness for- it's obvious how much you adored Peaches and that bond can never be broken- not even by death. I wonder if you have been in touch with The Compassionate Friends- they are a bereavement group for parents surviving their children, based in the UK. No one expects to bury their child, and I would think it's a pain no one can truly understand unless they experience it. I don't have children myself, but I can see clearly how much Peaches is a part of you, and you him. I am so truly sorry that he died and that your hearts are still breaking. It sounds like your trip to Bermuda was just beautiful. All the best, and a big hug to you all Kylie